The truth 29.3.2026

 The truth 29.3.2026


Why is my mind restless?

Why are my eyes brimming with tears?

Why is my soul racked with anguish?

Nameless haunting hounding fears..

They wake me up with a pounding heart

And no matter what Bible verses I quote

The terror inside me grows louder 

My heart cries, I am smote..


This ailment gives me amnesia

Keeps a vice like grip on my throat

Can't remember past blessings 

Can't see through the lies and smoke..


Can't push through the fog 

My being is weak and listless 

‘Help Lord, I need You

The dark demons are madness..


Breathe, deep precious draughts of life

Calm down the amygdala, the freeze, fright, fight, flight..


I've been here before

On these roiling fierce shores..


This too will pass

My Saviour is here

He holds me close 

He is present, He is near..


This snare of death 

This arrow of venom

His favor shields me

He paid the ransom..


I am held close

He loves me, 

I am His own

His treasured masterpiece..


He fights for me

He will never leave me alone 

His love is eternal

 

His love my cornerstone..


Lisa Choudhrie 

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