Crazy mind.. 11.1.2025

 Crazy mind.. 11.1.2025


It kind of fits in

The lost piece of the puzzle

The missing link.. 


Those sunny good days

Razzle dazzle with energy 

Creativity in the kitchen

Be a go getter

Goal setter, challenges all the better


And then the grey days

When the mood is low

And fatigue and weariness

Settle deep in my soul.. 


And my best friend

Madam anxiety

Manipulative scheming

Watches me freeze, get paralyzed

She sits back beaming.. 


And then my highly sensitive persona

Picking up moods and feelings

All the monkeys, all MY circus

Everyone and everything sends me reeling.. 


The deep dank dark pit of blackness

Where there is no escape

Hold my head and rock myself

Despair sorrow my dark drape.. 


Who understands? 

Is there anyone who cares? 

Who am I? 

The darkness, the brightness, the paralysis stare.. 


Auras migraines

Too much going on

What is happening? 

Who can hold me on? 


The God who sees

Who knows my name

Who understands pain and difficulties

Who became human, like us, the same.. 


No easy answers

No quick solutions

Formulae, formats

Many difficult questions.. 


One moment

Trust in the God Who sees

I hold my hand out

The God who calmed the sea.. 


Lisa Choudhrie


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